little bit of everything

Today my MW's nurse calls me and asks if I can come in for another blood test. I assume it was to check for doubling HCG. I'm sure she's just being extra careful since she going out of town tomorrow. I'm glad I don't have to wait till my next appointment. I got there really late, and the lab was still processing it when the clinic closed. I'll get the results tomorrow before she leaves.

I was thinking of scheduling an u/s for next week but since I'll be only 5w then I won't. I'm just looking for a heart beat, and would have better chance finding one @6w. If I went at 5w and didn't see one yet I know I'd freak.

I've been starving today. The m/s has subsided, and so have the pains. I did have some lover back discomfort, but it went away. I think I'd better ask my MW about cervix pain, It just started. I don't recall if I've ever had it during pregnancy before.

DS may or may not have been spilling the beans about the baby. He said something at my parents house about "the baby" I had to shush him 2x. I'm not sure if they heard or nit. Also he walked up to my friend and started talking about his baby today, but I think she assumed he was talking about our little angel again.

I'm also thinking my FIL has his quess in that I'm pregnant. I had to leave his house early to get blood work done. He never asked what it was for, but kept asking related questions about where it would be done at, and when the last time it was done ect. He usually doesn't drill for answers like that. Maybe I'm paranoid but he kept looking at my belly. The family rumor has it that he can sense these sort of things. One nice thing about him is, that he wouldn't say anything to anyone if he did figure it out.

I don't know. I so badly want to talk about this baby to EVERYONE, but I can't seem to yet. It's just too much right now. In a way I sort of with they could find out really soon about it on their own. But I'm scared of what the future may hold. I guess that's something I have to work on, staying positive and not thinking negatively.

My DS was so sick today. I feel so bad for the little guy. I hope he feels better tomorrow, I know he was looking forward to his party at daycare. Once I see the heartbeat, I'll have to put the baby's name on the waiting list, since Nicky is a great daycare provider and she'd be the only one I'd trust with the baby. She has a mighty long waiting list too, so the sooner the better. I hope I don't get what DS has, I don't want to put the baby at risk. I would have had DH take care of him today, but he couldn't since he's working overnights this week.

Well I really need my sleep, I have to get up in 6hr to send a child I take care of off to school. After that I'm definitely crawling back into bed till Patty (my MW) calls me.

It's currently -19, with a -35 wind chill. MN is sure cold!!! I'm glad the baby is nice and warm in my belly right now.